What do I value? What do I want out of life? What matters to me as a person?
I have this thing....this niche I've built up. This great and amazing world I've built up. I think I've gotten complacent....I've taken forgranted everything I have. I got nearly everything materialistic that I could have dreamed or wanted. Yet I'm slightly jaded by it because I feel like my materialistic needs aren't too out of control and that I've earned it. I feel like these things have become my right....yet something inside me knows this mentality is wrong. I dont know for some reason I don't feel happy being happy. I feel uneasy that I'm so happy I go to an amazing school, have amazing support from my family and friends and am making new friends. I'm hedging into a world I've always wanted to be apart, socially and professionally yet something is wrong..I can't put my finger on it. but something doesn't feel right.
